Nocturnal Activity

I'm trying to make a change in my life right now, so part of that is changing around my routine. The vampire hours are creeping back, so I am trying to change the deep evening pattern. Tonight after BJCP class I went for a walk with the camera and tripod. The idea is to get tired so I will sleep.

Tonight's activities create a new situation. I have a camera full of images and a head full of ideas. The new photos are up on the new flikr account. The free web is so cool.

The interpersonal life is full trauma, but I am trying to skate above all that. Why are relationships so hard? Remember that sinking feeling you get when someone tells you that this will be real easy, so don't go f*cking it up by thinking about it so much? You really are sinking, and you can feel it. Trust yourself and those emotional messages that flash behind your eyes. Take them into full consideration. Stop being the good deed boy scout pleaser.

Something good is going on now, I can feel it. Walking around with camera tonight, I could feel it. It's not really like happiness, it's excitement. Anticipation of the possibilities. It's growing.