This is the start

Here I am starting a blog when I should be working, isn't that how life is?

The drive to start the blog is all there. I have a head full of thoughts and feelings and just can't get started on anything constructive right now.

What needs reconstructing is my life. Two and a half years pissed down the toilet. Actually I just said that, but I have learned so damn much in that time. I guess now it's time to pay the bill - why does it have to be paid in emotional currency?